It’s not gone. It’s just quieter, I think as I take a second bite of the salmon. I’m still often weighing the effects of different foods on my body. I am still often reminding myself with first or third bites that what I’m ingesting is not going to have adverse affects. Sometimes I know it will and am willing to take the risks (sugar) and other times it’s enough to stop me mid-bite and reassess the whole situation. I’ll eat around the offending piece. I’ll slyly slip the dog some morsels so it isn’t wasted.
OCD isn’t gone. It’s managed and settled. It’s livable.
I don’t really want to go anywhere.
Not sure how much covid is a reason or an excuse.
I am taking many good, long, hard looks in the mirror--especially after disagreements about exposures and decisions.
The dark night of the soul, they call it. But I had that years ago. I only get glimpses now and am able to acknowledge and work with what comes up. What’s wanting to move through and be brought to Light.